|Darcy trying to be 'gangsta'.|
Copyright © 2013 Mark Kelly.
Sometimes I do envy those of my friends for whom life has been a clear and direct path to their future and any, and all, success it brings them. Unfortunately I've been like a rubber ball, bouncing my way through life going from one job to the next, then out of work, then back into work and on, and on it has gone.
I look back and realise I've become a jack-of-all-trades, yet master of none. Even my degree in graphic design has not pacified me into settling down, much to my own (and others') disappointment. I have yet to find my place in life. That elusive niche or proverbial Shangri-la.
Although I've worked for the best part of seven years as a Sports Massage Therapist, in the back of my mind I'm still treading water. What is it that finally makes us 'settle down'? Family? Career? Love? Home? Wealth? I could go on, but there is the answer to the question: for each it is an individual thing.
I really do love to write. It gives me a pleasure and satisfaction, I suppose if I am honest, that I can only recall from my childhood when I would be given felt tipped pens and a ream of paper, then I could sit quietly for hours drawing whatever filled my mind. But I have realised that my writing is much like everything else I've done in life and will fall into my jack-of-all-trades toolbox.
I honestly do believe that an important part of life is keeping the child within you alive, to give you that excitement of finding out fresh, new things, and seeing things with eyes not clouded with cynicism or bitterness, and the ability to embrace new ideas and approaches without pre-judging them. I think this is what keeps your mind alive and fresh, allowing it to produce the ideas and approaches that lead to inspiration and invention. It's difficult, I agree, to be 'the better person' and to rise above the sea of society's shit that we're splashed with day-in, day-out. But strive we must and hope that our efforts do not always go unnoticed.
It is very often the quietest voice that speaks the loudest in tones that the blind cannot refute, and the closed minds cannot deny. Be that quiet individual, and let your voice rise with grace and humility above the discord and chaos, and it will find those willing to listen.
Happy A-Z people, my thoughts are with you :) x